Of a Head Whore..
I was 17 all of 2 months. With a 21 ID. In College. What a combination. I had a very pretty persian friend. 19. With a 22 ID. Who lived in the condos by the water of Emeryville. With friends. Friends who liked to party. So party, we did.
Ever drove a bmw to school at 8 am after a night of drinks on drinks to try and make it to your class and your friends test ? With no Ls. Shaking. My. Head.
This, this night is where my confessions begin. My ex. My first. At the time, my only. We had split. And so in a time of masking sorrow I took to other guys. But NEVER have I been the type to sleep around. Let me say that first. But I a seducer I am by nature. Flirting is just in my ways. Its not intentional, but I understand how my approach can be deemed " flirtatious ". I. Fuck. Minds..
And in fucking those minds.. I find the guys desire the idea of fucking me. I say " the idea " because they often can not handle all that comes with the sexing. Still just thee idea of getting that opportunity to dip inside will have a guy acting outside his nature.
Maybe this doesn't apply to all ladies, but then again most of you ladies are giving it up after introductions and a date. Sooo guess you'd never know how far a guy is willing to go for the goods. BUT that's another for another time..
Back to the topic. Thee IDEA of being able to say " I hit that " I've often realized will have a guy offering to do things that he hopes get him in your good graces. Like he's trying to appeal to you. By showing he can provide food, shelter, security, laughs, luxuries, etc. Waiting to see which of these things sets you off. Opens that door. And ONE thing I've noticed is offered above anything else is..
Head. Oral. Cunninglingus.
With all that said. I mean to say..
" This, this night is where my confessions begin.. "
After classes were done on a thursday I left with my girl " N " and we went to oakland to meet up with some of her friends. Smoke. Chill. And then hit up Dave and Busters. Now being thursday Dave and Buster was grown and sexy crowded. Our gentlemen friends kept drinks in our hands (( back when I could drink like a rockstar ! )) And we was walking around too hot too trot in our heels to boot ! And of course after the party.. Its thee After Party.
So back to the homies house we go. Let me break down the dynamic.. .. N knows K and his boy M. Both are mid twenties, better side of 24.. Well aware of my illegal activity status. Yet M.. He's feeling me. So we all go chill. He's getting fresh, whispering how sexy I am, how I carry myself, how he just wants to kiss me.. He keeps saying this. He just wants to kiss me. After a solid 30 minutes of this I, in my saucy mode say " You keep saying it, but I'm here, and your not ".. His reply was simply " Your pants are on "
(( Bbm Surprised Face ))
See, I had no clue when he said kiss me he meant.. Well it reminds me of Cruel Intentions, Ryan Phillippe to Selma Blair " Not there.. There. "
Of course I declined, blushing. Went into my spiel about how I'm not that type, I don't dick hop after a few drinks and blunts etc and so forth in my long winded manner. Yet still he pushed the proposition. Then we decided to watch a movie. 2 and 2. A cover for each pair and well..
With out going into detail he convinced me to give him a taste. And I was turned out.
Other guys had thrown the offer out but never face to face so I figured it to be a tactic in trying to get the goods. And I suppose he was no different BUT he was true to his offer. No funny business.
I came to soon find out quiet a few guys were. Yes, they did in hopes ill let em creep inside BUT they dine, they are denied, and they go about their way. All to try it again in the near future. Realizing this I indulged.
I had an option at any given time any day of the week. Some guys I dated, others I seen once maybe twice thru mutual partying and sat on their face and didn't even give up a number. Any way you want to look at it. At the age of 18 and months of celibacy and face hopping I.. Was a Head Whore.
" This, this night is where my confessions begin.. "
Sincerely,
A semi reformed Head Whore
