Browsing through some old pieces i had written i came across this. I wrote this when i was 18 years old. 5 years ago. And stands true to this day if it ever did..
It begins with a Touch.
Always with a Touch.
Be it the accidental brushing of shoulders when you meet at a party. Or a arm around your waist when your walking to dinner. A hand on your cheek.
What is it about skin to skin contact that can drive a female mad ???
What makes us crave it???
Go thru withdrawals even....
But then I look at some of my girls and when one man steps out they let another one in. So maybe with me its more then sex itself. Its the connection with the person. If I felt nothing but physical pleasure I might be able to move on to the next just as easily. If I slept wit every male that tried me I might be able to hop around. But i look for that deeper meaning.
For some its the being able to let loose. Others, they like the comfort. Some its because society says its how things go. With me, its because I love the looks on his face. The smell he leaves behind. The world we go to wen he just Touches me. How its like im the best in this moment and hes the best in his, like there was no one before him and no one before me. Like everything else was irrelevant. How hours pass like minutes under his Touch. The inside of my right thigh quivers at the thought of his Touch. Whether we laid up or fighting I want his Touch. Its like a Drug. And although i can go without it and not try replacements. The withdrawals are purely mental. I cant let it go. And first chance I have to get some more im going to. Its crazy how a man can make a female act.
If he apologizes and he's holding your hand, hugging you, stroke your cheek, run his fingers through your hair, kissing your forehead, cheek, lips, burying his nose in your neck smelling you. Trying to keep you from leaving. Trying to ask for you to stay. To ask for forgiveness. To make up for a mistake.
If time has passed and his fingers long for the silkiness that is your skin to grace their tips. Just to place his hand on your thigh. To rub the small of your back. Rest his head on your lap. And feel the comfort of your presence.
A Touch can do so much.
That's why when you Touch there should be an exchange of energies, a spark, a release of endorphines, dopamine, something that makes you sigh. Smile. Feel warm. Feel hot. Think a million thoughts all at one time.
Now you may not be in Love...you may not Love this person at all...but for some reason you were meant to find this person and make this connection because it was natural. If you had tried to run you couldn't of. Its like magnets and metal, the attraction is that strong. Doesn't mean your here for forever, but it allows you to enjoy now. So if there is no tomorrow all you have is fond memories no worries.
Although you will miss this Touch. Like I said before first chance you get to have it back you will be there. You also are just happy to know it exist and since you came together before, you will again. Magnet to metal. So you don't stress it. Though you miss it, and it holds you back from settling for an casual physical exchange. You still wait it out. Till the one is back or a new Touch is taking you to that level. A level you have yet to explore. Allowing you to reach a new place of yourself.
Every Touch should leave an lasting impression and introduce you to a new you. Teach you. Change you. Sometimes hurt you.
